Returning

The returner applications for RAs are due at the end of this week, which means I have from now until, oh, Thursday evening to decide whether or not I want the chance to have this job again.
I know I've been a good RA to my residents, and I love knowing that they consider me a good role model. And I've made so many great memories while at this job - Unolympics, for example, will go down in history.
But what I need to evaluate right now is if I've been a good RA to my 19 peers, and if I've been a good person to myself. And, if I haven't been, if being an RA is a part of the answer.
I also need to be sure that I'm reapplying for the right reasons, and that I'll be able to live with my decision. I don't want to apply for the position without being reasonably sure that I'll not only do a good job, but that I'll also love doing it.
It's a hefty load to balance, and I've got a lot of thinking to do. Real soul-searching, I think.