Auld lang syne

What the hell does that mean, anyway - "auld lang syne"? Someone, explain that phrase to me.

In the meantime, it's a brand new year and I have a few brand-new resolutions. I have to write these down, else I'll be lulled into forgetfulness - which marks the beginning of my list.

1. I'd like to work on being a bit less absentminded. I keep a countless number of lists, I file my life into neat folders and notebooks, and I have at least 3 calendars - yet I still managed to be a complete and utter ditz at incredibly inopportune moments. I don't quite know how to cure this problem of mine, but I intend to work on it this year.

2. Graduate with straight As in the final quarters of my college career. I'm dragging my GPA up a point at a time, but by God it's going up.

3. Save money. I'm broke.

4. Drink more water - I turn too quickly to soda and coffee (face it - they taste better than water. They taste like something, for one. All that sugar in soda and caffeine in coffee (no sugar, just non-fat milk!) is terribly unhealthy, though, so this is the first of my health-related resolutions.

5. As healthy as I may be, I could be healthier, and part of that inevitable requires exercise. *sigh* I'm incredibly lazy - I don't even walk to the mall to get on the bus for school, and it's right across the street! Ridiculous. So, in order to ramp up my routine and get into the best shape of my life since I was in elementary school, I'm going to take up jogging. I also plan on bringing my bike down to San Diego, when I get the chance.

6. I'd like to intern at newsstations during my last quarters as well, and hopefully I'll have a job offer when I'm a graduate. I want to work for a year, to save money (see resolution 3), then get into a good grad school, such as NYU, Columbia, Berkeley, or Boston - all schools with top journalism programs.

7. Finally - I need to stp blaming my family for all the pain and heartache I've suffered throughout my 21 years and some odd months of life. It's not fair, that I was the child of a loveless, unhealthy marriage. It's not fair, that my mother should choose to reveal details of her unhappy 28 years of matrimony, which she stuck with for the sake of her children. I shouldn't have to know this.

But, I do. I also know that life is unfair, and that's that. I can't continue life the way I've lived it all these years, afraid of attachments, for fear of the pain it may bring me. I know that part of it is the lifestyle I was raised in, but I can't let the past affect my future this badly. There are some memories that I've only begun recalling, very painful memories that'd I'd rather not revisit. I haven't entirely forgiven my family for a lot of shit I've gone through.

But I'll never forget the love and support they've given to me, either.

I should also break out of this vicious cycle, and stop falling for guys who only break my heart. That could be hard, though - I'm prone to making bad choices and exercising poor taste.

Anyway - long story short, I aim to get healthy, in all aspects of life, in 2008. Here's to me!