This is a little early, but whatever. I was in the mood to reflect. (I wish something like lj-cuts existed here...)
1) Was 2006 a good year for you?
I would say it was an experience. I became an RA during the early months, and trained during the spring quarter. I finally told someone that I was in love with him, and got my heart broken even further. But, I also healed, recovered, and moved on. I did my first internship during the summer, and lived away from home for the first time (not counting college. Like, I paid rent). I traveled for the first time without family, but with friends.
This past quarter was just… crazy. It started out with RA training, during which I made some fantastic new friends. This, however, resulted in my parting ways (of a sort) with another group of equally wonderful people. Not that I never stopped loving them; I just chose to stop communicating with them using the method they preferred (I still have AIM, guys…).
Being an RA was wonderful, but stressful. I really enjoyed it, though. However, I missed my old friends from first and second year, and I vow to spend more time with them next quarter.
So, yes. An experience.
2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
RA Training, and Aldersgate. That was pretty fun. My birthday was also pretty kick-ass.
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
The actual moment of truth. Oh, and opening the envelope and realizing I was an alternate. It worked out, though.
4) Where were you when 2006 began?
At home, with family, as usual. Nothing’s changed.
5) Who were you with?
My mom, dad, and Susie.
6) Where will you be when 2006 end?
Here at home. And no, that isn't always by choice. Sometimes, I'd much rather not be here. Like now.
7) Who will you be with when 2006 ends?
My mom and dad, for sure. Jane… maybe John? Susie’s in
8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2006?
I don’t remember making any, actually.
9) Do you have a new year’s resolution for 2007?
Yes, a lot of them, actually. Be more healthy, be a better friend. Actually, they all revolve around those two themes.
10) Did you fall in love in 2006?
Um. This is complicated – I stayed in love with someone for a while, but then I got over it. I started crushing on someone, but then I got over it. Now I’m crushing on someone else… will I get over it in 2007? Or will something actually HAPPEN?
11) Did you breakup with anyone in 2006?
No.
[Don't ask me what happened to 12-15. I don't know either.]
16) Did you make any new friends in 2006?
Yes.
17) Who are your favorite new friends?
I don't choose favorites.
18) What was your favorite month of 2006?
August, I think. That was when RA Training began.
19) Did you travel outside of the
Uh. Yeah, TJ. I think that’s it. XD
20) How many different states did you travel to in 2006?
21) Did you lose anyone close to you in 2006?
Not this year, thank goodness.
22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Still missed friends who went out of state. Definitely missed friends who moved off-campus.
23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2006?
I saw quite a few, actually.
24) What was your favorite song from 2006?
I hate these “favorite [blank]” questions.
25) What was your favorite album from 2006?
Nelly Furtado’s new one is amazing. So is Justin Timberlake’s and Christina Aguilera’s. I was introduced to Daft Punk, which is a lot of fun (mostly just in the car, though, when driving to get boba). Muse is awesome, too – Supermassive Black Hole!
26) How many concerts did you see in 2006?
SunGod (My Chemical Emo – err, Romance – and Talib Kweli); uh… I think that was it? I don't remember if I went to WinterFest or not... though I think that would have been 2005, actually.
27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2006?
Nope!
28) Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2006?
Nope. Still not a drinker; so NOT sorry to disappoint.
29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2006?
Yeah, I was on amoxicillin for a little while, but I’m off of it now. (That’s an antibiotic!)
30) How many people did you sleep with in 2006?
I don’t kiss and tell. XD
Really though, no one. Unless… do sleepovers count?
31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Actually, no, I don’t think so. Woot!
33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2006?
I hope no one’s lied to me. If they have, well… I’d like to know so I can go kick their asses. And then drop them as friends, ‘cause friends don’t lie to one another (and by this, I mean the big lies, like, "Hanna, we didn't really want you to hang out with us, but you invited yourself along so we put up with you,"not ,"Hanna, your ass looks huge in those jeans." I'd still like to know if my ass looks huge, but I won't kick yours for lying about mine.
34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2006?
I don’t know. I hope not… leaving IRC doesn’t mean I’ve treated people badly, right??
35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2006?
Ha, I liked my answer from last year. “SomeBODY? More like some PEOPLE.” Really, though. That is life.
36) How much money did you spend in 2006?
Shit. I don’t want to think about it.
37) What was your proudest moment of 2006?
Being a good intern, becoming an RA, and, most of all, telling the person I liked how much I cared, even though it wasn’t reciprocated. It just opened my eyes, I think, and once I face reality, I really face reality. I got over it pretty damn fast, considering how long I’d been mooning over him.
38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2006?
Ha, telling him. And just looking back and seeing how much I made a fool of myself over someone who didn’t and wouldn’t ever care. But hell, that’s love – embarrassing, but good for you, especially if you can laugh at yourself. I’m PRO at laughing at myself by now.
39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2006 and change something, what would it be?
Hmm. There are moments when I could have stood up for myself more. But shit happens. Learn and move on.
40) What are your plans for 2007?
OMG. I did all my plans for 2006! That’s amazing!
Plans for 2007 – do another internship, possibly RA again. Um. Other stuff.
I..
[ ] broke a promise – Don’t think so. Phew!
[ ] made a new best friend - No bests, just all good friends.
[~] fallen in love – I stayed in love for a bit. I wouldn’t call crushing on someone “love.”
[X] fallen out of love – Hell’s fucking yes, I did! Whooo hooooooo! Dropped that baggage like CSE 3! (My first year. I’m taking it for real next quarter. Wish me luck.)
[X] done something you swore never to do – told someone I cared! Now I’ve re-sworn to never do it again. XD
[X] lied – White lies. For instance, when Mom asked me how my weekend was, I didn’t tell her that I was sick, or that I went to TJ, or whatever. Not lying, so much as not telling the whole story. XD
[X] stole – Accidentally took food from Foodworx :P
[X] went behind your parents back – To TJ.
[X] cried over a broken heart – AND MOVED ON, BABY!
[X] disappointed someone close - But I was disappointed, too.
[X] hidden a secret - And from people who I never imagined hiding things from.
[X] pretended to be happy - Ha. Story of my life, people. Mostly, when I'm acting unusually happy, I am. But sometimes... look underneath the underneath (Thank you, Kakashi-sensei!).
[ ] got arrested – Nope.
[ ] kissed in the rain - I want to, though. Sounds all romantic and gushy and stuff.
[ ] slept under the stars – Sounds cool, but also sounds really, really COLD.
[ ] kept your new years resolution – Never made any.
[ ] forgot your new years resolution – Never made any.
[X] met someone who changed your life – But for the good, I’ve realized.
[ ] met one of your idols – Still would like to.
[X] changed your outlook on life- I’ve become, if at all possible, more jaded and cynical. I still cover it up with bubbly laughter and big smiles ('cause that's what people seem to want, and when I give them anything less, they fucking freak out), though, and so far, I’m fooling almost everyone I know except those I am completely honest with and Stephi.
[X] sat home all day doing nothing - And LOVED it!
[X] pretended to be sick – I called in sick to work too many times.
[X] left the country – Yeah, TJ.
[ ] almost died – Hey, my allergies didn’t overreact this year! Yee-friggin’-HA!
[X] given up something important to you – Yes, and I’m better for it now, but I still like last year’s answer too – why am I always giving up and giving in? Why do I still try to get over? Why can I ever get?
[X] lost something that meant a lot to you – Shit, I’d forgotten about the earring. Lost my favorite necklace.
[X] learned something new about yourself – “I really don't like myself, and I've known this for a while, but this year it just came to a head.” <-- that was last year’s answer. This year – there are still things I don’t like about myself, but that’s fucking life. I’ve gotten over a lot of the negatives, and I did learn something new – that it is entirely possible for me to love being ME. My god, that was amazing.
[X] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it – Electronica? Thanks for Ladytron, Kevin and Taylor!
[X] made a change in your life – Fuck yes! Being an RA was incredibly changing.
[X] found out who your true friends were – Fadiya and KLo never gave up on me, even though I hardly saw them. Stephi stuck by my through EVERYTHING, just as always. Made a few new ones, too – let’s see how they hold up under pressure. XD (Love you guys!)
[X] made a total fool of yourself – Every day, I’m sure. I’m over it.
[X] met great people – HELLS YES! And my god, they’re wonderful people. Wow, I miss them!
1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
Interned, traveled with friends, RA
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No resolutions, but am making them for 2007
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not that I know of. ._0
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Not this year, thankfully.
5. What countries did you visit?
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2006?
More self-confidence, more self-love, and more really true friends. I doubt some of my friends, sometimes, and how much they care about me. I tend to care for them more than they do for me, I think. Sometimes that opinion changes, but for the most part, some of my friends like each other more than they do me. However, I know the ones that will never give me up, and for that I am extremely lucky and grateful.
7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The day I told him, the day I was told I would be an RA, my birthday (my god, the Batman mask >_<)… 8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Interning, RAing
9. What was your biggest failure?
Caring too goddamn much about some people. But in all honesty, since when is caring a bad thing? Hm – let me revise that. Caring too goddamn much about people who don’t give a hoot for me in return. Oh, and for letting paranoia run away with me.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Stupid fucking left ankle! Stupid fucking left wrist! Stupid fucking left hand! Stupid fucking left eye! My stupid fucking left side of my stupid fucking body is FUCKING STUPID! ARGH!
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Shit. I don’t know.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Friends who put up with my whiny crap, and pushed me to do shit I’d never have done without them. Fadiya and KLo should be canonized for dealing with me.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Depressed - The dude, for breaking my heart. Appalled - The friends, for not realizing how much they hurt me some times. Appalled and depressed - Me, for taking what they don’t mean seriously, seriously.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Food, clothes, schoolbooks, more clothes, rent.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Interning, traveling along, being an RA. Wow, do I sound like a broken record or what?
16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
Huh. I don't know.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
::happier or sadder? ::
- [my GOD this thing is long] Happier with myself in some respects. Happier with myself than I’ve been in the past, anyway. Sad that I still put up with crap I don’t need to put up with, especially from friends, but I’m working on that. Not heartbroken anymore, so that’s a plus. Happier.
::thinner or fatter? ::
- Same, I think.
::Richer or poorer? ::
- Much poorer. Damn summer rent.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Faking cheer when I don’t mean it, which is worse than what I wrote last year (not being as cheerful as could be). Yes, I bring people down with me when I’m in a bad mood, but sometimes I just need to be in a goddamn bad mood. Sometimes I need to be fucking irritated. And sometimes, people just need to either deal with it or GET OUT OF MY FUCKING WAY. Trust me - if you don't want to go down with me, then LEAVE ME ALONE. I say this for your sake. If you want to help me out, then you can't say you haven't been warned.
And Mom, I know that my being a whiny bitch can get on your nerves, but guess what? You get on my fucking nerves, too. We're human - don't expect me to be your goddamn perfectly perky princess, 'cause that isn't my choice and it never FUCKING was. (Yes, I'm angry right now. No, I don't normally use "fuck" so often. Yes, sometimes, I just need to.)
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Slacking, whining, hiding my true feelings, spending money, putting up with crap.
20. Did you fall in love in 2006?
Fell OUT of love. Now I’m just crushing, which is infinitely more fun and less heart-breaking when I don’t know of its being reciprocated or not.
21. How many one-night stands?
None, but I doubt I would talk about it even if I had.
22. What was your favorite TV show?
I don't really watch TV, but I did enjoy
23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No. I talk to fewer people, but that doesn’t mean I don’t care about them.
24. What was the best book you read?
Once again, I don’t pick favorite books. That’s just impossible.
25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Hmph. Dunno. Rediscovered a lot of people.
26. What did you want and get?
Good relationships. An internship. The RA position.
27. What did you want and not get?
Family peace. World peace. Self-love. Etc. <-- what I wrote last year, and it still stands. I’ve worked on the self-love one, though.
28. What was your favorite film of this year?
Stupid favorites questions.
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 20 this year – on Friday the 13th, again. ^_^ Day of, I went out to eat with Stephi. The next day, I went out to lunch and shopping with KLo, Fadiya, and Chris. Later that night, I went out to dessert with some RAs, but I had no idea that was the plan (they hooded and blindfolded me, and made the night pretty crazy).
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
More sleep.
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
The same as always. I know what looks good on me, I know which trends not to try, and I still obsess over accessories.
32. What kept you sane?
Getting off-campus, talking to myself (out loud or in my head), journaling/blogging, and, most of all, GOOD FRIENDS. Oh, and in times of RA stress, boba. And, as always, chocolate and coffee. XD
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Mmph. Derek Jeter and George Clooney. Oh, and Jake Gyllenhaal is still amazingly good-looking. XD
34. What political issue stirred you the most?
Iraq. Abortion, and women’s right to choose.
35. Who did you miss?
My far-off friends. My off-campus friends.
36. Who was the best new person you met?
No favorites/bests. Just some damn good people, and some damn people who have disappointed me.
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson(s) you learned in 2006.
Getting over love is better than being in love (in my personal experience. Don’t fucking tell me otherwise, because I don’t care if it’s worked for you – I wouldn’t know. No offense or anything, but that’s just how it is). Loving myself is better than loving another person, and I need to work on that. I need to take some people less seriously, ‘cause they don’t mean to hurt me. Some people need to take me more seriously, because they’re hurting me in spite of their intentions. And finally, good friends are better than anything else in the world, EVEN chocolate.
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Hmm. “I’m bringing sexy back!” HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! (No, that laughter isn’t self-deprocating!)
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