Currently, I'm at the start of the blog that took me from the end of junior year of high school (which explains the infantile writing) through... the middle of second year of college.
At the blog's moment of creation, i wrote like this cuz i thought it was soooo cool! with luv and happiness! ^.^
Sickening, isn't it? It hurts to re-read this, but at the same time, I'm reliving memories that I'd misplaced and forgotten. Dusty, aged memories, from 4 years back. The earlier posts that I'm slogging through (I'm re-reading blogs and writing this post at the same time), during junior year, mostly revolve around KIWIN'S. I forgot what a huge deal it was to me (oh no, my style is fading! I'm reverting back to my 16-year-old self!), and why it left me burned out. I wrote about it not too long ago, though, so I won't reiterate here (scroll down to the picture of me to read said previous entry). I will say, however, that I'm incredibly disappointed that I never kept in touch with these friends I made. :[ Hmm... perhaps I should facebook-stalk them.
Found one that I wasn't friends with already! Let's see if she remembers me. :]
Wow. I've faced my insecurities since senior year of high school, but it's only now that I'm mature enough to do something about it. Don't get me wrong, I'm still insecure. But I'm just the tiniest bit more accepting of myself. I love myself a little more. I treat myself better. That sort of thing.
Glad to see that I've grown at least a little bit.
Oh GOD. I'd forgotten about Alan.
HA! Just re-read the post I'd written when I found out I'd gotten into UCSD. I could not sound less enthused about being a Sixth student, and now look at me. :D
Oh damn. I forgot about that epic fight with my mom and Susie. Wow. Sometimes, I honestly hate my family.
"HURRAH FOR SINGLE PEOPLE!
So, who else here is single and lovin' it? Did you guys know that I managed to go through all of my grade school career single? I remember back when all I looked forward to was checking out hot guys and looking for boyfriend material in all of them. Then I realized just how problematic relationships are at this age, and said, fuck it. I'm staying single. And I love single-dom too! Seriously, being free to do anything just to please myself, and not anyone else is really liberating. If I feel the need to impress anybody, it's me that I want to impress, and no one else. It's a great state of mind.
Love Hanna"
Wrote that toward the end of senior year. Ha, I guess I was pretty smart after all.
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